Mid April Update: Decisions Decisions

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Hi there. This is not an exciting post so I will just cut straight to the point.

I’m going to end this blog and my Twitch channel. Not now, but probably before this year ends.

I have been thinking about it since last year, and eventually came to a conclusion.

Why? There are many factors leading to this.

  1. I have no emotional, psychological support from my family, real life friends.
    No one supported what I did, in fact everything I do online. They think that they are insignificant, maybe there are right. This is how the materialistic Asian society works. Which is why I keep ranting about moving out, I want to be free from this superficial bs.
  2. I do know my content is crap.
    I do know the quality of content I write is getting worse. Even my stream content isn’t great. People do say I’m funny, but I am THAT funny, my audience should have expanded at some point. But according to the stats, my viewer base is getting stagnant or actually declining on both WP and Twitch. It’s not about the money I earn, in fact invest a lot of money for my hobbies to the point that I think it’s not feasible in the long run anymore. My dream is that the money I “earn” on both sides is enough for it to self-sustain.
  3. Life is taking a turn
    A lot of RL stuff happened for the past 6 months that I’m starting to lose passion on being a “content creator”. I’m starting to feel burdened to write or stream, something I don’t experience for the first 2 years of blogging and first 6 months of streaming. I cannot feel the love and passion I got at the start of my “content creating” adventure.

And other elements that I find too personal to share.

So yeah, this is not an “all-out” stunt to get viewers and stuff, but a serious decision that I struggled for months and eventually find a conclusion.

Will I ever come back? I don’t know about that. I might come back, I may disappear permanently.

How will you find me once all of this goes offline? I will announce that at a later date, because I’m thinking about deactivating my Twitter too. It’s under consideration, so nothing is set yet.

Will I ever reverse any of these decisions? I doubt so, I can’t really find any convincing reason for me to stay around any longer.

So I want to thank you guys in support for the support for what I do for the past 4 years. Being a solo blogger isn’t easy, and it seems that I’m not that kind of person being capable of handling this for a long time.

I will try to write as much as I can till the end of this blog. Any questions just put it in the comments, I will answer them all.

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39 responses to “Mid April Update: Decisions Decisions

  1. I’m really sorry to read this! I check your site every week, and I’ll miss reading your perspective. But you gotta take care of yourself, and if this is what you think’s best, good luck! And remember: you can always start blogging again if you change your mind!

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  2. Hello ,

    I saw your tweet about animals and thought I will check your website. I like it!

    I love pets. I have two beautiful thai cats called Tammy(female) and Yommo(male). Yommo is 1 year older than Tommy. He acts like a bigger brother for her. 🙂
    I have even created an Instagram account for them ( https://www.instagram.com/tayo_home/ ) and probably soon they will have more followers than me (kinda funny).

    I have subscribed to your newsletter. 🙂

    Keep up the good work on your blog.

    Regards
    Wiki

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  3. Well this kind of sucks. Although I respect and appreciate your decision, it can get a little unhealthy when you get too vested in your online life, on a super selfish basis, I would have loved the chance to get to know you better.
    But if you aren’t having fun – what’s the point, right?
    So I hope you find something to strike your passion again (or something to reignite your blogging one – even better!) and I guess I’ll have to start going through your archives in the meantime.

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  4. I know we both didn’t exactly see eye to eye with each other in the times where we actually communicate, but just know that people do in fact enjoy your content.
    I understand how it feels to have no support from friends and families in real life, but I supposed we do see things in different lights, and not forcing yourself to continue is a good choice too.
    I hope you can continue to make good use of your remaining time blogging and streaming, and hopefully come back. That and hopefully real life gets better for you.

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  5. It was fun while it lasted. We followed each other from around the beginning of both our journeys. I’m glad you actually made an announcement as opposed to just disappearing. Hopefully, you make the last couple of months fun and write what you want to write.

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